Friday, September 17, 2010
I'm all about dreams and having goals and working to attain them. I'm probably one of the most ambitious people you'll ever meet.
I'm also a realist.
I've always had dreams - who hasn't!? Mine ranged from being a model to an actress to going to Harvard Law School. Then life veered off track for me and I lost sight of what I wanted to do. I chose to be lazy and hang out instead of working hard for what I wanted.
I paid for that mistake, too, my friend.
When I decided to move into a shelter about 11 years ago, one thing they made all of us do when we first moved in was to make a timeline of our lives.
Let me tell you - that was One. Of. The. HARDEST. Things. I. Have. EVER done. Even to this day.
We were to start from as early as we could remember, and mark major life events down on this timeline. Good and bad.
The point of this timeline is to see why we were in the situation we were in, and what happened to get us there.
Then we made goals.
We started with 3 long-term goals and 3 short-term goals. Every time we accomplished a goal, we cross it off of our list and added a new one.
I accomplished my first goal within 3 months - I got my GED. I then began college at our local community college.
Over the years, I have momentarily lost sight of my goals and veered off track, or my goals have changed, but the point of this post - you will soon see.
Part of being an adult is knowing what goals are attainable, and which ones are not. I came to a realization this week, and I had to say no to something I really wanted to do.
I was going to go to Type-A Mom Conference, but since I just started a job about a month ago, and I couldn't secure any sponsors, I had to cancel my trip. I'm devastated but my children still need school clothes, I need new tires on my car, and I'm trying to move soon. Realistically, I can't afford the trip and I am an adult - I can't do everything.
Type-A Mom just isn't coming to fruition for me this year.
There's always next year.
So for now, I'll have to watch Twitter for #typeamom posts on Twitter and dream about meeting these girls:
- Kelby, who is the Maven of the conference (and many other things! YOU GO GIRL!)
- Lisa, whose writings make me laugh regularly and sometimes even make me cry!
- Arianne, who I just want to hug and cry with just for a second
- and most definitely, my roomie whom I had to hang out to dry with my cancellation, my online BFF, Andrea