Tuesday, April 14, 2009
This post is a somber one.
Two years ago today I lost my birth mother to a flesh eating bacteria. The void that was created so many years ago will never be filled. I miss her. When I want to talk to her, I can't. I have to put the phone down.
When I think of her grandchildren growing up without her, it hurts. No one will fill the void that losing her created.
I'm grateful that I found her before she passed, and I'm grateful for her choosing to give me life. I'm also grateful for my brother and sister that she gave to me.
This photo is from one in my brother's house. There aren't many photos of my mother, and this one is one of my favorites.
Here's one of her and my brother in the 80s:
I've never dealt with loss this deep and I doubt I ever will again. Even though I forgave my mother years ago, I still wanted to know some things.
All I can do now is wonder...
Rest In Peace, Mommy....
Carol Susan James
02/27/57 to 04/14/07